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The Power of a Single Book

Over in the great city of Portland, there is an organization called the Uprise Book Project with the laudable goal of fighting poverty. Their unique approach on this matter, in my ever so humble opinion, is both innovative and audacious. Their chosen stratagem for combating poverty is not what one might expect. They are not going to write checks, instead they want to give away books. To some, this may sound a bit off, but if I may share a personal story perhaps you will see the beauty of their enterprise.

Many, many, many years ago I was a young lad growing up in northern New York. Now, you first have to understand that when I say “northern New York” this is not to be confused with Westchester County, or even Albany. We are talking a full seven hour drive due north from New York City, where if you hit Canada you have only gone about a quarter mile too far. The area where we lived was one of the poorest school districts, if not the poorest, in the entire 54,556 square mile state. We are talking about a place that didn’t boast “haves” and “have-nots.” We were really more along the lines of “have-somes” and “have-lesses.”

You have to remember back in those days there was no such thing a home computer and we didn’t even have an Atari (shocking- I know). Our telephone was rotary, had a cord and was on a party line (no, not some late-night dating phone service commercial biding you breathlessly to “call me now”, we literally shared the phone line with another household. Before you dialed you had to check to see if someone from the other family was using the line). I remember one summer that a tube blew on the television (seriously, not only were televisions the size of a dresser, they used to have these vacuum tubes inside- I can’t make this stuff up). That left us us without the benefit of the three tv stations we could tune in when the antenna was pointed in just the right direction. At the time there was a rumor of something called cable TV, but I think it was just an urban myth.

While I paint a gloomy picture, in all honesty, it was a marvelous place to grow up. I learned that you get out of things what you put into them. For example, if you wanted to be toasty warm in the winter, you better split and stack firewood in the summer and if you wanted to eat, you better help out in the garden. It was a place where a kid could play in wide open spaces, run the fields, learn the woods and grow- both physically and spiritually. Yet, it was not a place where I could have transitioned from a student to having rewarding career. Some of the best jobs in the area were working at one of the factories, of which I believe three of the four have closed since I left.

“Outside of a dog, a book is man’s best friend. Inside of a dog it’s too dark to read.”
― Groucho Marx

Unequivocally, you would not be reading these words today were it not for one defining aspect of my upbringing. My parents loved books and they encouraged me to read through both their words and by example. I was free to pull any volume from the respectable library they had amassed and even engage in pre-internet web surfing, or as it was called back then- reading the encyclopedia. Reading took me to a place beyond the farm lands, it forced me to consider ideas and concepts beyond anything I was exposed to in school. Above all, it made me thirst for more.

I remember clearly it started with a collection of Arthurian Legends, but lead through “A Wrinkle In Time” to find “The Black Cauldron” and eventually I wandered through the shadows to meet the “Nine Princes in Amber.” Yet, there was one book in particular that had a tremendous impact on me as a youth. While I was already a fairly avid reader this one title was beyond anything I had read before. I don’t recall how young I was when I took a copy of The Hobbit off the shelf and asked my Dad if I could read it. “You are a little young for it,” I remember my father saying, “But, if you want to give it a shot I want to know what you think of it if you can get through it.”

The note of challenge was clear to my pre-adolescent mind, and I was utterly powerless to resist it. I sat right down and opened the book to the first page. I read it through the day and under the covers with a flashlight into night. What started as a defiant act to prove that I could do something I wasn’t supposed to be able to do, turned into something so much more. My typical enjoyment of reading turned into a true love of the written word. I let the story draw me in and my imagination exploded with the depth of imagery Tolkien crafted. Nothing had ever touched me the way that book did.

That sly old wizard, meaning my father in this case, knew what he was doing by provoking me to take up the book. I, just like Bilbo, lived a quiet, provincial existence and I connected with him. As he left the Shire I started to wonder what would happen if I left my home as well. That this was my father’s plan all along was confirmed when during my senior year of high school my parents gave me the 50th Anniversary edition of the Hobbit. The inscription written by my father read, “To surge through the underground of life is a mighty calling.”

“The man who does not read books has no advantage over the man who can’t read them!”
Mark Twain

Through this one book, it was as if Tolkien, with his willing accomplice my father, had sent Gandalf to fetch me and I, two days after graduating high school, left home with not so much as a handkerchief in my pocket. My path has lead me through 34 states, ten of which I’ve lived in, and four foreign countries. I have been a soldier, a waiter, a cook, a Coast Guardsmen, a factory worker, a cop, a restaurant manager, unemployed, a security guard, a “Special Projects Director,” a computer tech, a pirate, a full-time-dad and through it all a writer. I have stood on the steps of the White House, fought bad guys in the dark alleys, plucked a drowning child out of a river, gone with a gun in my hand through the door on drug raids, I have had a car accident victim die in my arms, I have married the wrong woman, found myself divorced and then found the right one. Now I am focused on raising my family, but I am not done yet, because the road goes ever on.

Listing these experiences is not an act of boastful arrogance, nor do I seek to exaggerate my own self worth. In truth, doing so actually makes me feel more than a touch uncomfortable and overly exposed, but I feel it is important to illustrate all these things are the result of reading. Reading isn’t just for mousy little nerds afraid of the sun. Books can not only enlighten, educate and entertain, but but they can inspire us to rise up as well.

Which leads me back to what Uprise Books is trying to do. I won’t claim that I rose from abject poverty to the heights of success, we weren’t destitute and I am not finished working on that whole success thing. Yet, I think my story illustrates the potential inherent in the Uprise Book Project. Especially since they have a hook.

You can lead a kid to the library, but you can’t make him read, right? Well, the books that Uprise plans to give out are ones that have been banned or challenged before. What is the fastest way to get a teenager to do something? Tell them they can’t do it (see there is another reason I told you about me and The Hobbit. Which by the way, The Hobbit, as well as the Lord of the Rings, have been challenged, banned and even burned over the years).

The next Steve Jobs, Collin Powell or even Albert Einstein may be sitting in a low rent apartment in Hell’s Kitchen right now. Maybe the person who will discover how to make cold fusion work and open wormholes to distant galaxies is sitting in a run down trailer on the Pine Ridge Oglala Lakota Reservation. Imagine it was you who inspired them to rise above their poverty and realize their potential, all by helping to get the right book in their hands. It is possible.

You can help Uprise Books in their mission. At this very minute they are running a KickStarter Campaign to raise the funds needed to build the website that will make it possible for teens to get their books. I humbly ask you to consider giving what you can. Not every kid has a sly father who will set his kid on the path to something better and you might just be able to overcome that twist of fate by becoming a backer of the Uprise Book Project.

Please, go there now and give it an honest look.

The “Someday Syndrome”

Upon the presented page of construction paper was a beautifully rendered crayon illustration of two figures astride oblong disks of some sort. I was tempted to hazard a guess, but Jimmy, in his five-year-old enthusism, beat me to it with a prideful announcement, “That is you and me, Daddy! We are surfing!” I would have been correct in my interpretation, but before I could reach around and pat myself on the back, he was already moving forward. He asked if I had ever been surfing and I replied that I had always wanted to, but had not done it.

“Why Daddy?”

Time slowed a tick or two as my eyes locked on this poor naive child of mine. So, innocent in the ways of the world. Doesn’t he understand that it takes money to start any new hobby? Then there is the training one might have to pay for to get a decent start at any such skill. That is not even approaching the exploration of the costs associated with traveling from our landlocked home to locations where one might engage such activities. Then there is time involved, he needs to know that as a man there are demands on my time. I have responsibilities, a family, career requirements and so on.

“Why Daddy?”

He didn’t ask again, but the question seemed to echo maddenly, overridingly, damningly.

He just doesn’t understand! No, he is only five years old. He can’t understand the constraints I have to deal with… I mean how can he… um…

I had always wanted to learn to surf. Meaning that for at least 20 years I have wanted to acquire a new skill, but I have not taken the necessary steps to do so. Surfing isn’t alone on that list either. I haven’t learned to scuba dive, to sail a boat well, celestial navigation, to speak Gaelic, to really care for and ride a horse well, to lose 10 (okay, 30) pounds, running a marathon, hiking the Appalachian Trail, go elk hunting from my buddy Dan’s cabin, thin the alligator numbers with my buddy Todd and about 600 other things. So, why Daddy, haven’t I?

Of course, there was the fallback defensive line of all that I have done. Yes, I have been a soldier, I have been a sailor, I have beat down criminals in dark alleys, I have gone though the door on search warrants, I have lived rough in the middle of nowhere, I have flown nap-of-the-earth in ancient Huey with chopper’s doors open- these things count. Right?

Hell yeah it totally does… No, it really doesn’t, does it?

Forting up behind the crenellations of past accomplishments is a cop out. Jimmy might just as well asked, “Daddy, how come all the really cool things you have done happened before I was born?” That certainly is a a good question, son.

How many things do we put off until the ambiguously defined “Someday”? Some things are too difficult to achieve, while others involve too much risk. Still others would be great, but we just don’t have the time, money, physical conditioning, spousal support or required astronomical alignment to do that at the moment. But, someday…

Someday, someday, someday.

Someday things will be different. Someday I will be able to do all the things that I want to do. Someday, I will get back into rock climbing. Someday, I will take my family to Disney World and have a unforgettable time. Someday my boys and I will hike the mountain trails up to Machu Picchu. Someday I will take my beautiful bride to Paris and eat at a sidewalk cafe along the Siene. Someday I will drink scotch in Scotland. Someday I will drink whiskey in Ireland. Someday…

But, when does “someday” actually happen? “Someday” isn’t a plan, nor does it appear on any calendar. No, “someday” is a crutch. It is the self-endorsed carrot on a stick variable size. It is the means by which we can convince ourselves that on some future date we will be able to do exactly what we desire to do. The more you tell yourself “someday” the easier it becomes to swallow and I am finding it to be one that I am swallowing with in increasingly large rum chaser. Jimmy’s question stopped the Dixie cup of Someday flavored Cool Aid halfway to my mouth.

Folks, I just turned 41 years of age a couple of weeks back. Since this conversation with my son I have noticed the Someday trend started some years back and now strikes with startling regularity. If you can get enough distance from yourself, you can see how incipient it truly is. It becomes a habit, nearly an addiction, of subconsciously abdicating your future in order to make peace with the pressures and challenges of the present.

Do not be ashamed if this has happened to you. I am not exposing my short comings for the entire interwebs to see to satisfy some masochistic need. I am doing it to help save you from the same trap I found myself sucked in to. This is not the sort of trap that is easily identifiable by the second Death Star being fully operational and Imperial Star Destroyers coming from around the moon of Endor, where the shield generator is still intact. Still, I am trying to be your Admiral Ackbar here.

“It’s a trap!” Don’t fall into it! Do your saving throw against complacency right now. Look around you and determine what you have been putting off for someday. I mean really think about it. Have you wanted to quit smoking, get to the gym, climb a mountain, learn to shoot or go back to school? Toss out the flights of fancy (for example, I could summit Mt. Hood, Oregon, but there is no way I am doing K2, probably) and make a list of what you truly desire to learn or accomplish. Be honest about this. Have the courage for true introspection, and consider that if you can’t be honest with yourself how can you ever be honest with anyone else.

Now, here comes the hard part- Go for it.

Sorry, there is no magic incantation I can share to make it easier. If there were you would be unable to find an entire section in the book store dedicated to “self help.” You are the only one that figure out how to accomplish your dreams, goals and desires. Whether you are the type of person that works best with a detailed matrix of short and long term goals sorted by a self-produced algorithm evaluating relevance, importance, desire and investment over time or you just go with few scrawled notes on the back of a bar napkin, admitting you have a problem is the first step.

If you have a case of the “Somedays” admit it to yourself now and apologize to your significant other. Make a plan, set dates, get your friends involved in some hair-brained schemes, but most of all stop putting things off. Stop living in the “Someday.”

Here is what Jimmy's 12th birthday will look like

Note: Photographs courtesy of the author, all taken at Smuggler’s Cove, Oregon

What the Hell is Wrong with Us? -Part Two-

I was ten years old when a nut job tried to kill Ronald Reagan. I can vividly remember laying on the living room floor watching the news that night. Regular programing was preempted for special coverage that lasted the whole evening and I was fascinated by the examination of the horrifying event. Keep in mind, this is back in the days before 24 hour news channels, with flashy graphics splashed across the screen and unending rosters of experts and pundits standing by to renumberate for hours when called upon. Back then the news gave you news, period.

Recently I was reminded of this attempted assissination by the occurrence of another one. When another nut job tried to kill Congressman Gibson, and did tragically kill several others, it was a was handled in a markedly different way. The desire to know what had happened and to understand why a tragedy occurred is a normal reaction. I can understand that the modern news media is responding to this demand with the parade of opinion givers. The news networks are businesses competing for advertising dollars, and there really isn’t twenty-four hours worth of news to report on each day. So, when something “newsworthy” does actually occur, they play it for all it is worth.

While I understand all this, it is ultimately pointless. Let’s suppose the attempt on Reagan’s life had occurred today. The media could have paraded guest-after-guest on stage to postulate theories, but it would all be conjecture. It is inconceivable that a single talking head, no matter how many of them there were, would guess that John Hinkley, Jr.shot the president of the United States and several others in an effort to impress Jodie Foster. The only way to determine a cause, if ever, is investigation and such things take time.

This is the point in which I question what is wrong with us. I sat at my computer reading the news about Congresswoman Gifford when Twitter blew up. Before the police could secure the crime scene fingers were being pointed. Without so much as even having an identity on the shooter, people were blaming individuals and ideologies. I watched as Twitter began to trend with people claiming Glen Beck, Rush Limbaugh, Sarah Palin, the Tea Party, conservatives and immigration reformers were the real reason the shooter decided to pull the trigger. On the other side, folks made assumptions that only a left wing wack job could have done such a thing, as well as fervently hoping it wasn’t someone with right wing ties.

The media’s talking heads picked up on this and much of it was just as bad. These folks condemned the “vitriolic talk” which “obviously” led to the shooting with inflammatory condemnation. My biggest “head impacting desk” moment through all of this was the assertion that talk radio was the reason the shootings took place. When it comes to talk radio, I can take it over leave it. I have spent many hours behind the wheel of the car seeking something to keep me awake and I have heard enough of what is out there (Personally, I prefer a good podcast, like Geek in the City). But, if you are going to tell me that shows like Rush and so on attract crazy people I am sit you down and make you listen to “Am Coast to Coast” for a few nights.

As I pulled back and took a macro view of the two sides sparing over who was to blame I discovered new questions. When did we become so divided? When did the labels define who we were? Why do we even have so many labels? Most of all, why are we taking politics so personally?

If I don’t agree with you on health care reform, what does that really mean? It means that I have a different opinion. It doesn’t mean that I am an idiot. It doesn’t mean that I am a conservative who wants people do die because they don’t have money, or that am a liberal who wants to have the country turn to communisim. It means I have an opinion.

The personal attacks on people who don’t completely agree with us are not only ridiculous, but counter productive. I may not have agreed with President (W) Bush, but he wasn’t stupid. I may not agree with President Obama, but I don’t believe he is a Kenyan born, anti colonialist bent on the destruction of the country from the inside. An idiot, or a traitor, is not going to manage to get elected to the office of president. Doing so would require that a majority of us are just dumb and considering I have cited two presidents from two parties, and two ideologies, we would actually all have to be really stupid.

I refuse to be labeled, categorized or easily sorted. Do you remember your elementary school history? Ol’ Ben Franklin said, “We must hang together or assuredly we shall hang separately.” I fear this is just as true now as it was then. Take a step back and look around you. Are we really all that different? Don’t let yourself be pigeon-holed! Ask yourself what you believe. You might be pro single payer health care and pro military. You can be anti gay marriage, but also pro union. It is conceivable that you are pro illegal immigration amnesty while supporting gun rights. Ultimately, you may be an environmentalist who questions man-made global warming. Be the person your conscious dictates, there is absolutely nothing wrong with the failure to comply with a political platform.

Personally, I have a well defined belief system developed through decades of study and introspection, but if your beliefs do not meld with them, so what? I really don’t care. If you are gay, lesbian, straight, black, yellow, purple, conservative, liberal, anarchist, pirate, eccentric, Christian, Muslim, Jew, Hindu, Pagan, agnostic, atheist, city dweller, country boy/girl, hippy, organic, climate change alarmist, climate change deigner, CEO, production line worker, management, or union, I don’t really care. If you are an honest, caring, moderately unselfish person, I will extend my hand to you.

There has been much debate pertaining to the the “damage” our last president did to the image of the USA abroad. I don’t think it was him, I think it was us. We have let ourselves become bickering, petulant children in the back seat of the car on a long road trip. Back in the days before seven passenger cars in portable DVD players, I know that my dad could, and would, drive while reaching back to smack sense into the offending parties. It is time that someone do that to all of us.

Personally, I am not waiting for any of our elected leaders to guide us on this path. Time-and-time again we are shown they make extremism a part of the agendas. Political discourse in this country has become a playground full of egomaniacal bullies with focus group enhanced vocabularies, polling data, publicity consultants and penchants for saying whatever they think they can get away with to get their way.

No, I don’t see our elected officials helping us to find a better path, but that doesn’t mean we need to let them drag us into the sewer with them though. Each and every last one of us has the capacity to be a leader to inspire those around us. You don’t have to be elected to high office, a famous actor, a war hero or a noted philosopher to do this. You simply need to lead by example.

You don’t need to stand on a stage in a city park screaming and waving signs to effect change. You simply have to live through the strength of your convictions while respecting the beliefs of others. When a discussion of politics becomes heated, before you break out the Burr-Hamilton replica dueling pistols, re-frame the argument so that you can actually talk about the reason you are even arguing. If you examine what beliefs we hold in common, you might just find we are not that far apart.

You can become a leader through your own actions.

I believe that this country was founded on the belief that the individual had far greater worth than the glorification of a social class or elevated individual. We are in this together. I ask, no, I beg you to hang together. For, personally, I do not desire to hang separately.

What the Hell is Wrong with Us?

The other day I was standing in he checkout line at the grocery store. While attempting to keep my 2 year-old from pitching canned goods for distance my eyes were drawn to the glossy covers adorning the nearby magazine racks. Normally, I don’t even give these racks a second glance, they aren’t placed there for my demographic in the first place, but this day I really noticed them. It could have been the plethora of over Photoshoped bosoms, the colorful fonts or simply the fact that the were shiny that drew my gaze, but I don’t think so. I believe the sheer number of gossip rags subconsciously activated a fight-or-flight response and woke me up.

I took my time to count each and every magazine that dealt with celebrities, gossip about celebrities and fictional-stories-packaged-to-look-like-news-about-celebrities. It took some time to tabulate, and not just because I had to take off a shoe to use my toes in the counting either. In the end there were thirteen such publications.

Why? The question assailed me. Obviously there is a tremendous market for such material. How else could they charge $4 and up for these rags?

Then, thankfully, the question of what is wrong with me, turned into what is wrong with the human race? This isn’t an American problem, need I remind anyone of the photographers that pursued Princess Diana until her car wrecked? No, there is something wrong here. Why should it matter what celebrities do? Why does it matter if Jen telephoned Brad and Angelina is upset, even if such a thing occurred? Why do we even have “celebrities?” They serve no function to society.

For the most part we are talking about “movie stars,” sure there are some professional athletes in the mix, but “stars” get the most ink. They are actors, simple players who create films to entertain. They aren’t the people they portray, but yet we seem to think they are. The populous seems to want to create images of who they think these people are, without regard to reality. I may like a character in a film, but that doesn’t mean that Bruce Willis is going to intimidate me in a bar with lines from Die Hard.

I won’t take anything away from actors. I have great respect for what they do. Yet, it seems that we, as a culture, want to build these people up to be something greater than they are. When an actor makes a movie, they are doing their job. Yes, it takes skill, but so does welding. Acting takes years of training to develop the skills required be truly good, but then so does appliance repair, desktop support and being a good auto mechanic. So, there has to be something more to this.

I believe our societal celebrity addiction is rooted in the fact that we want to feel better about ourselves. Who doesn’t want to have a private jet fly us to Paris for lunch, shop without considerations of a budget and holiday at exclusive topical beach resorts? But, since most of us don’t have these options, why should anyone. So, in that case, let’s pull down those who might be able to enjoy them. That is the key.

From where I sit, we elevate individuals to celebrity status for two reasons. The first is to vicariously live through them and the second is so we can watch them fail. Perhaps this illustrates touch of high school angst leftover, or a pay back on fate for not awarding one’s dreams, that causes some to want to watch those more popular to tumble down the face of Mount Olympus. It might be an actor caught getting serviced in his car by a hooker or an actress going into rehab to avoid jail time. It doesn’t mater the offense, it is the scandal, the outrageous behavior, the failure.

To be honest, I have no unresolved issues from high school, nor do I car to watch a car wreck occurring in front of me. In the course of my life, I have witnessed true tragedy play out live, unscripted, on at least a few occasions. Perhaps that is where I gained the perspective that saves me from this madness. How could someone who had been in broken homes and talked to battered spouses, be moved by a supposed phone call between former lovers? How could someone care that a millionaire is adopting a child from another continent when he had seen whole families living on the street. How could someone who had seen what a bullet can to do a human being care what plastic surgery some celeb has had?

This I ask of you, if I may. If you are standing in line at the grocery register and you are tempted to put one of these celeb rags in your cart, please do the following. First grasp the handle of your shopping cart with both hands. Then in a swift, forceful motion thrust your head downward towards the shopping cart handle. This movement should be followed by a violent impact if done correctly. Now, once the stars clear from your vision and you are able to stand without the aid of the friendly Walmart greeter, look at the cover price of the magazine that tempted you. Write that number down, because let’s be serious here, you might have a concussion. When you get home from the store, or perhaps from the magical smart phone you posses, take the amount of the magazine you almost purchased and donate it to a worthy cause. Hell, since we just saved you from making a titanic mistake and perhaps changed the course of your life, double the amount and donate that. You will find some a couple of my favorite charities on the right sidebar if you need any suggestions.

Even if you don’t follow all the steps of the previous paragraph, please do one thing- just don’t buy it. If you don’t buy it and you convince two friends not to waste their money and they tell two friends and so one… eventually the paparazzi will have to quit camping out in front of celeb bars hoping for a crotch shot and get jobs they deserve- I’m thinking the Sears Portrait Studio. Gossip columns will eventually fall out of vogue. Perhaps at some point we can even stop using the word, “vogue.” Finally, and perhaps best of all, if there is no market for it, there won’t be anymore catty, live TV, fashion panels examining celebs on the red carpet.

Please, just say no!

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